April 2026
Notes on presence, relationships, and simple everyday moments.
1
梦里
找不到路
找不到人
世界变得很小
In the dream,
no road
no one to find
the world closes in
有时候
我去找
于是
问题被解决
sometimes
I try to find a way
and the problem resolves
有时候
直接换一个世界
那里
从来不缺
sometimes
I shift into another world
where nothing is missing
还有时候
什么也不做
and sometimes
nothing is done
让这一段
自己走完
this part
moves on its own
像火
烧尽自己
like fire
burning itself out
不是解决了
也不是逃开
只是
不再继续
not solved
not escaped
just
no longer continuing
有时候
连“让它走完”
也被看见
and sometimes
even “letting it unfold”
is seen
没有谁在选择
没有方向
no one choosing
no direction held
像一阵风
来
又散
like a passing wind
arriving
and dissolving
什么也不剩
nothing remains
除了
生活继续
except
life goes on
2
Projection is not the problem.
投射不是问题
It is simply how experience appears
on the surface of awareness
它只是经验
在觉察表面的显现
What tightens is not the projection,
but the belief that says:
“this is me”
真正收紧的
不是投射
而是那句——
“这就是我”
3
A feeling arises
a reaction appears
情绪出现
反应浮现
before the story
everything is still fluid
在故事之前
一切仍然流动
4
Then comes the fixing
接着是固定
“he always…”
“I am this kind of person”
“他总是……”
“我就是这样的人”
and the flow becomes a line
流动
变成一条线
5
The story is not created by the event
故事不是由事件产生
but by continuity
而是由“延续”产生
what is held
becomes a narrative
被抓住的
开始变成叙事
6
Projection, when untouched,
投射在没有被抓取时
appears
moves
dissolves
出现
流动
消散
7
Nothing needs to be corrected
没有什么需要被修正
awareness is already here
觉察已经在
before any attempt
to change
在任何改变之前
8
Tightness may still arise
紧缩仍然可能出现
but without ownership
it has no ground
但若没有认领
它没有落点
9
Even tightness
is not a mistake
连紧缩
也不是错误
it is only another movement
passing through
只是另一种流动
经过
10
Without being held
当没有被固定住
stories shorten
故事变短
sometimes
they don’t even begin
有时
甚至不开始
11
Not because they are stopped
不是因为被阻止
but because
nothing continues them
而是因为
没有什么在延续它们
Before the story
在故事之前
there is only
this
只有
此刻
12
Each tendency
once gathered into “me”
continues to move.
每一个
曾被聚成“我”的倾向
仍在波动
Some become emotion,
some appear as thought,
some move as action,
some unfold as events.
有的成为情绪
有的显为想法
有的推动成动作
有的展开成事件
But “I”
is no longer at the center.
而“我”
不再总站在中央
13
The gathering
softens.
聚集的力
在变淡
Not cut off,
just slowly dissolving
一点点
耗散
Not disappearing suddenly,
just losing its shape
不是消失
只是失去轮廓
14
Emotion
doesn’t belong to anyone
情绪
不属于谁
Thought
doesn’t need to be believed
想法
不一定需要相信
Action
doesn’t require a doer
动作
不需要一个执行者
Events
don’t prove a self
事件
不再证明“我”的存在
15
Just movement
appearing
只是流动
Sometimes dense
like someone is living
有时浓一点
像“有人在经历”
Sometimes light
almost only happening
有时淡一点
几乎只剩发生
16
The habit
of gathering into “me”
keeps fading
那个把一切
收拢为“我”的习惯
也在退去
Little by little
一点一点
No need to rush
no need to complete
不需要完成
不需要到达
Like fire
finishing the wood
像火
烧尽自己
Like mist
quietly clearing
像雾
慢慢散开
Like ink in water
becoming lighter
像水中的墨
自然淡去
In the end
not “I am gone”
到最后
不是“我消失了”
17
Just—
只是——
No need to gather
不再需要聚集
No need to define
不再需要定义
Not even
“is this me”
连“这是不是我”
is necessary
也不再必要
Only life
continuing
只剩生活
继续
18
Freedom
自由
Not more free
不是更自由了
Not moving toward freedom
也不是走向自由
Only
No longer needed
不再那么需要
to name a moment of
tightness
slowness
pause
weight
把一时的
紧
慢
停
重
解释成
as unfreedom
不自由
Freedom didn’t expand
自由没有变大
but what felt like constraint
thinned
束缚却变薄了
Not breaking out
不是挣脱
Not opening up
不是打开
Only
that layer of explanation
那层解释
softly loosened
轻轻松了
19
Home, before the idea of home
Once
I thought
going home meant
returning to a state
a place
something that could be reached
Now it feels
more like
everything called “me”
loosening
one layer
then another
no journey
no arrival
nothing gained
not even “returning”
maybe just
remembering
—or even that
is already
a little too much
回家
无处可回
被称为“我”的一切
松开
连“想起”
也没有
只是
这样
No conclusions, no systems — just moments appearing and fading.